True Love is Infinite
By Diana Paque
Certified Life Between Lives® Hypnotherapist, USA
Loretta is a 67-year old professional woman who has recently retired as the director of a service delivery organization. She has spent most of her adult life serving people with extreme needs, most of whom never had the ability to compensate her for her time and energies. She came to me at the transition point from her very active life into retirement. She has been married for 34 years, and her husband now has some disabilities that impede his activities. She has some chronic health issues that seem to be worse now that she has retired, as well as periods of nightmares that have recently reactivated.
Loretta’s questions were around the lessons that she was still here to learn and hints on making progress with them. She was also interested in having guidance on her relationships with her mother and brother as well as greater understanding of others that she was here to help. Because she had read the books, she wanted to know how to hear and communicate with her Council when she was not in a session. In her 30s, Loretta died briefly during surgery and experienced the joy of being home and feeling the infinite love, and this was something that she wanted to experience again.
During her first session we bypassed the past life and went straight home. However, instead of experiencing the joy and elation she expected, she encountered intense sorrow and sadness. A horse came to guide her and take her forward. The horse felt safe and supportive, but Loretta stated that it was not her guide. It took her a few more moments to pass through her initial upset and be able to locate her guide. Her guide led her through a deep forest that was very calm and peaceful. She began to shiver and exclaimed that she felt joy – but only for a brief moment.
She wandered through a garden and then into the deep forest with the horse and her guide.
Loretta (Client): This place feels so much better – more peace but no intense joy now.
Therapist: Ask your guide to explain this.
Client: He is just gesturing for me to follow along with him and I will understand. Oh here’s my Council – not in a big building but at a rough hewn table here in the middle of the redwood forest. I’m feeling the joy race through me now.
She began to ask questions, and they kept repeating that the journey was about her and not about others: she needed to pay attention to her feelings and needs instead of those of others, as she was drained and needed to refocus and be replenished.
She then explained that they were moving her into a vortex that was spiraling downward, and as she exited onto a field she could see that she had dropped out of a big beautiful flower.
The field was empty but there had been a fair there previously and the energy of the people and what they were doing was still present. She kept trying to see people but couldn’t. There was the more-distinct energy of one person who was hanging around but wouldn’t engage with her. She kept asking him to speak without success. He kept fading into a shadow when she tried to engage. She finally began to take in the feelings and the energy of the space, and then saw that the figure was her guide who was waiting for her to engage in feelings. He told her that she didn’t have to hear, but simply feel. He said that she was impeded by high expectations, and that this was not a marathon. There was lots of time, he said, and you are here to feel the soul energy, not the people. You are here to connect to the earth and its energy without judgment.
When she returned to her Council, they reinforced that she needed to release to move forward: that she was not accepting the choices of others which was trapping her rather than them. She needed to release and focus on restoring her energy. They reminded her that she needed to be in the garden where her faith could be restored. And she needed to visit the fairy ring in the forest where she could have spiritual renewal and connection.
She tried a few more times to ask her initial questions, but her Council was adamant that this journey was about her and not others, so would not respond to any of these questions.
Loretta left this session wondering about what it all meant and why she had not experienced the peace and joy she had anticipated and experienced when she was home before. We communicated and set up another session to address the missing elements. This time she slowly went into the life of a little girl who lived a safe and secure but uneventful life. Growing up was mostly a blur, but all was safe and loving in her surroundings. In her 20s, Clara met Robert and they fell quickly in love. It was a blissful time for both of them, and they experienced the high of meeting and courtship. And as suddenly as it started, it was over.
Loretta began sobbing that she had lost him. Robert was a soldier who had gone to war and died, and she was alone and at a complete loss. Life seemed to end for Clara. She went through the motions of life and work, but spent her evenings mourning her lost love. In spite of her losses, Clara did not give up. She became a teacher and began working with young people as a way to have work more inspiring than her previous office job.
Clara also connected with Irma and Dave who were Robert’s parents, and soon after moved in with them. And over the next 20 years, they developed a loving, connected family with her, initially held together by their affection for Robert, but ultimately for each other. After Dave’s death, Clara and Irma continued on with their relationship until Irma finally passed and Clara was left alone in Robert’s childhood home. Even though she had a good life, there was an emptiness that continued. She noted, however, that there was a growing feeling of Robert’s presence in the home that gave her peace.
In her 70’s Clara finally was ready to leave. As she peacefully left her body, she was immediately embraced by Robert who came to get her and bring her home. Loretta sobbed in blissful joy as she reunited with her true love. He reminded her that they had lived many times together, and that some had been for decades working together as doctor and nurse, or partners in work and life. Loretta learned at that point that his appearance in Clara’s life had been a gift to her to have him briefly in her life so she could remember him and the joy they shared, but that he had to leave so she could learn the lessons of that lifetime.
Her Council and Robert both reminded her that the joy she was feeling was the infinite joy of connection, and that Robert was serving as the vehicle to remind her of the connection. When she interacted with others, she was to feel this same joy – not just with Robert. The Council told Loretta that all relationships hold the potential for this joy, and that her connection in this last life with Robert was shown to her today to remind her of this: she could create this joy if she were open to it.
Before we ended, she asked them about the nightmares she had been having. Her Council told her that she had been traumatized in the past and the fright was still holding her in the energy. I asked her to ask her Council to support her in releasing this energy. She reported seeing a firecracker going up into the air as she pulled out its tail, and then it exploding in a burst of multicolored energy, releasing the fright connection.
Loretta exclaimed as she came out of trance that she had no doubt this time that she was in trance, as she had tears that she was wiping off her face and neck. She had a very clear understanding of the love that surrounded her, and that she was responsible for participating in creating it in her life. She knew that Robert had met her when she died during surgery, and he had sent her back to finish her life and journey in this lifetime. She said that he was waiting for her to finish this life: they could have many more in the future together. She felt the joy of connection that she had missed in the first session, and all of the lessons of being responsible for herself and feelings were now coming together. The love and joy that she felt in the past she had now regained with greater understanding of how to connect and reinforce connections for the remainder of her life on earth.
As we reviewed her past life, she saw that it was idyllic in feeling but nothing was very clear: not until she met Robert. This brief encounter with her soul mate changed her perceptions of life, and even after his death she was able to connect more deeply with his family as she opened herself to loving connection. Loretta explained: “The meaning of Robert was not only that he was my soul mate; it is also that I am to be open to loving connection in all relationships as this love connects us all. He is the most direct manifestation of that love for me, which is why we went to that life today, but he isn’t all of it – simply the easiest for me to understand and connect with.” She understood that in her earlier session, she had encountered the pain of going home without connecting to love, and as Robert was her touchstone, we missed connecting with him first, and that was the missing link for her first journey.
As she left the session, Loretta sighed and smiled. She remarked that she understands now that the love she is seeking in her life is now in her heart for her connection to herself and to others. ♥
Diana Paque is an LBL Facilitator in the San Francisco Bay Area, California, USA and online worldwide