Love as a Catalyst for Change
By Paul Aurand
Certified Life Between Lives® Hypnotherapist, USA, Europe
This story was the first one in Dr. Newton's Memories of the Afterlife. We thought we would share it again with you now as it relates to the theme of this issue of Stories of the Afterlife. (Newton, M, (2009) Memories of the Afterlife, Llewellyn Publishing, (Chapter 1)
Many seek life between lives hypnotherapy longing to know if they will ever meet their soul mates. This is a story of a young woman who has recently met her soul mate. But this time, rather than to be together, he has come into her life as a catalyst for change. As the session progresses we find this is actually his second attempt to “wake her up” and help her learn the soul lessons she has been struggling with for lifetimes.
Sasha is a thirty two year old woman born in Northern Europe. After a twelve year relationship with Mark, the first and only man in her life, plans were made for their fairy tale wedding. Two weeks before the wedding Sasha’s “soul mate,” Raul showed up and rocks her world. Not knowing what to do Sasha follows through with her wedding plans and marries Mark. Despite keeping her commitment to him, she is torn. Sasha finds herself pushing Mark away. She is never able to be really intimate with him and a few months later moves away from Mark to live and work in Portugal.
They have been apart for almost six months. During their time apart, Sasha crossed paths with Raul again. They became lovers for a brief time and then Raul moved on. Sasha is devastated.
She comes in to our session feeling terribly guilty and confused. Sasha is wondering if she is to be with her “soul mate” Raul or if she should stay married and go back to her husband, Mark. She is seeking advice from her guides and direction for her soul.
During an LBL session, we normally direct a client back to the most recent past life. On occasion, when there is an earlier lifetime of great significance, a client will go to that lifetime rather than the most recent one. That is what developed in this case.
The opening scene in Sasha's past life is of an Egyptian temple. She is a priestess engaged in spiritual studies by the name of Sharoon. Our conversation about this life unfolds as follows:
S: “I am learning about spirituality but I am also practicing manipulating people who don’t work in the temple. I am able to influence them spiritually and energetically.”
P: “Help me understand how you manipulate them?”
S: “I manipulate them to be obedient. To believe what I want them to believe. I do it through creating and sending images. I create a mental image of what I want them to do and I send it. They can see it and feel it. It is very powerful! It is easy to influence them.”
P: “Move forward in that life of spiritual studies and manipulation. What happens?”
S: “I am killed. Yes, killed.”
P: “And how does that happen?”
S: “There are enemy invaders. They are entering the temple and they are killing everybody. They kill me too.”
P: “What happens to you? Where are you in relation to your body now?”
S: “Outside. Very quickly. I am just observing. I watch as more people enter the temple. But I don’t feel sad. I feel peaceful. I am accepting.”
P: “Where do you go and what do you do?”
S: “Up and up, looking back on the scene. I see light, up and to the left. I am going towards it. I move towards it without any effort. It is very peaceful.”
P: “What happens as you reach this light?”
S: (Surprised) “I am not very religious, but I see an image of a holy person with his arms wide open welcoming me. I know this is a symbol of loving bliss. I can see now, it is my guide who is there. I feel safe. It is my guide Araton. He tells me everything is fine. I am doing very well. He accepts me, supports me and loves me. He just melted into me. We are one. This is so incredible! It’s a way of experiencing his vibrations. He is very wise and joyful, so bright and so pure.”
P: “Why does your guide merge with you in this way?”
S: “So that later on I will know his vibrations. So that when I need his help and when I meditate I will know he is with me. I will feel his peace and joy.”
P: “And where does he guide you next?”
S: “We are in a beautiful rose garden sitting on a bench. There are pedestrian walkways. At the end of the path there is a building. It is white. As I look at it I realize I can go there to ask questions but I am afraid to do that.”
P: “And how does Araton respond to your being afraid to ask questions?”
S: “He says I don’t have to ask questions if I am not comfortable now. He says I can do it later on.”
“We are going to do some healing. I am to follow him. It is strange. I know he is radiating love but I cannot feel it. He says we can fix it.”
“Now I am in a healing chamber. From the top it is like a machine producing different colored rays of light. (Sasha shakes in the chair) I can feel that I am vibrating. I don’t have to do anything. It is just happening. I am feeling very peaceful. There is a soft but penetrating pink light cleansing my body inside and out.” (1)
P: “What is it that is being cleansed from you?”
S: “There is still some kind of fear that I am holding in my (ethereal) abdomen that should be cleansed that is connected to love. It is why I had trouble feeling Araton’s love.”
P: “Where does this fear associated with love originate?”
S: “From many lifetimes.”
This healing and vibrating goes on for some time, then Sasha reports it is complete.
P: “With this healing complete, if we were to hold up a full length mirror, how would you appear?”
S: “Clean. A blue color with some pinkish tints.”
P: “We know your guides name is Araton but what is your immortal spiritual name?”
(Long pause)
S: “I hear something like…Kiya…but I am not sure.”
P: “Perhaps you can ask your guide?”
S: “He says these are names from past lives. My immortal spiritual name sounds something like Caseeoea.”
P: “How would we spell it?”
S: “Ka shy a pei ya”
P: “And now that this healing is complete, where does your guide take you?”
S: “I am in front of a group of beings. There are 5 of them. We are in a round room. I feel so safe! Araton is with me. He is standing to my side and slightly behind me. At first they all appear in the same brown color but now the one in the middle is white and one of the other ones is a reddish color.”
P: “What happens here?”
S: “I am just waiting. Now they are welcoming me. They want to help me to ‘live my life fully.
(My client is now engaged with this “group of beings” who are on her Council, often called the Elders or Wise One's. There is a long pause here while Sasha collects her thoughts and visualizes the Council members preparing to work with her).
P: “What are they communicating to you?”
S: “It is like a wall on the right hand side. It is sort of a screen. I see three scenes. In one it looks like me giving birth and there is someone next to me. A man I don’t recognize. I don’t want to see this.”
P: “What is your hesitation?”
S: “This man in the scene where I am giving birth is not my husband or Raul. I don’t like that. I want it to be Raul.”
“They are showing me three scenes. There is one scene with the man I don’t recognize. In this scene I am having a baby. There is one in the middle where I am with Raul and this scene is very bright although this is not the most probable or best one. Somehow I know this is true but I don’t understand why it is brighter than the other two choices. I am scared. (2) The scene to the far right is me with my husband Mark.”
“Oh, I see. They are showing me I have a choice! I can choose to be with my husband or the other man. I can even choose to be with Raul. That is strange. I have three choices.”
P: “Do you want to ask them which choice would be of the highest good for your soul?”
(Long pause)
S: “I have asked but they are not going to tell me. They say I must make my own decision without their influence.”
Note: Here the Council is having Kashyapeiya, who in her past life as Sharoon influenced and manipulated many people, experience how important it is for one to be free to make choices in life. And as is often the case, they teach her this by talking to her about it but also by giving her the experience of free choice free from even their influence.
P: (I pose one of the two questions that Sasha has brought to me before our session began.) “Perhaps you want to ask them why Raul came into your life as he did.”
S: “To show me how to relax and feel joy. He came to open me up. To help me open to other people. My closest friend has always been Mark. We were always together and had no outside friends. We were in a sort of shell or cocoon. Closed and separate from others, in our own little world. Raul has come into my life to wake me up and break that shell open. He came as a catalyst for change! He came to help me learn how to love. That’s why I now have many friends and am traveling the world for business. That is what has brought me here.” (3)
P: (I ask another of Sasha’s pre-session questions) “Do you want to tell them how guilty you feel about your relationship with Raul?”
S: “They say it is ok. It will be washed away. It already is. They say there is nothing to be guilty about. They say it was necessary to shake me that much so that I would make some decisions and make some changes in how I live.”
P: (I pose another of Sasha’s questions) “Do they advise you to go back to the marriage?”
S: “No. They don’t advise me to go back. They say it is my choice. I have freedom of choice.”
P: “Perhaps you want to ask them what the best thing is now for your soul growth.”
S: “It is very strange. Now I feel sad and afraid.” (After a pause, Sasha continues) “Acceptance and letting go of things. To let things happen. To accept life and let go. To let things happen and not to control them. To not manipulate things or people. Just to observe to see what happens. This relates to my lifetime as the priestess and manipulating.”
“This is scary. I don’t know if I will be able to be with Raul. I know I want to be with him but he has his free will too! I don’t know if he wants to be together.”
“They show me on the screen how life with Raul could be. It would be nice. Spiritual and calm. I can see two children. I am not sure which country it is. It is a very peaceful and happy life. But, he has to want it too.”
P: “You might ask them what the possibility of that is in this life.”
S: “It’s only about a twenty or thirty percent possibility. Twenty percent.”
“I am scared it will not happen. The point is I want it and he does not. He has his free will too and I am not supposed to manipulate it. He has to want it too. Oh, this is hard!”
Note: Soul lessons such as these are often a struggle to “get” and Kashyapeiya is really struggling here. She is so set on having her way it is almost impossible for her to even look at the different possibilities for her life, let alone take in the deeper soul lesson her Council is presenting her with. It can take lifetimes to resolve certain tendencies we carry in our souls and this seems to be a pivotal lifetime for Kashyapeiya.
S: “They are talking to me about choices again. You have the freedom of choice. That involves others choices too. I don’t like it. I don’t know why. I don’t want this to happen. I am scared really.”
P: “By showing you these choices what is it they are trying to communicate to you?”
(Long pause, still struggling with what they are showing her.)
S: “All these lives meet at the same point in the end but they are different.”
(I ask another of Sasha’s pre-session questions)
P: “Do you want to ask them if any of these three men they are showing you are soul mates?”
(Long pause)
S: “I don’t know, I am so scared to see.”
Kashyapeiya is having so much difficulty accepting what her Council is teaching her, her guide Araton steps in. He suggests we leave the Council meeting for the time being while reassuring Kashyapeiya that she will be able to return if she wishes. Araton takes her immediately to her soul group. (4)
S: “We are already here! I can see my Mom, Raul, and others. I see 8 people standing in two groups. Four on the left and four on the right. My Mom is in the middle of the group on the left. And in the group on the right are Raul, Mark, and Andy (a new and close friend.)”
P: “And who comes forward first?”
S: “My Mom comes forward to greet me and then steps back. Then Raul comes forward. He is making jokes with me. He teases me. I don’t know what he is talking about but he is very funny and really joyful. He isn’t that joyful in real life. He is often very distant and even cold but here, he is very warm and funny. (5) He says “take it easy. Don’t push. Follow your heart. Allow yourself to follow the guidance. I am so scared. I am telling him I want to be with him. I feel the pain. “Maybe. Maybe baby. He jokes. I am so angry.”
P: “Ask him why he came into your life now.”
S: “This was the last opportunity to change my life. To open me up and to show me there are many other possibilities. I was closed and shut down and he has opened me up. He tried to do this for me before in another life. I was quite reserved and couldn’t open up to him. I didn’t stay with him. That was very painful for him. This is one reason he is quite reluctant to be with me this time. He is afraid I will leave him and he will be alone again. He says he couldn’t bear that again.”
P: “What did you two agree to in advance of this current life?”
S: “Sometimes we are together and sometimes we are not. In this lifetime there are times we are together and times we are not. There will be a period without being together and there may be another period after some time when we will be together, but he is checking other possibilities too. I must wait for him to decide. I cannot control it. He has to choose. I tell him that I love him. (Cries, long pause) We embrace.”
“Now, Mark comes forward. Both Mark and Raul are in my soul group. He is happy that I am here but he is sad that we have been apart. I too am sad about this. I tell him I am sorry if I have hurt him. I tell him I love him.”
P: “And what is the agreement that you and he have?”
S: “To be together. To love and support each other. To learn as much as we can from each other. To be friends. We are hugging.”
“I am confused. I am feeling this sadness and fear again. My Mom and my friend Andy are there just standing looking at me. I feel their love and support. I want to move on but there in the group on the right is that guy from one of the three possibilities shown to me by my Council. But I don’t want to talk to him. He is close to me but it is hard for me to see him. I am so scared he is not right for me. My guide Araton is saying he can support me and he is wondering if I want to talk. He says whoever I am with will be fine. My life will be fulfilled. This is difficult for me to hear but Araton is telling me I need to work on acceptance. He is saying I have free will and there are different possibilities but I am not sure which I should choose. I don’t get this. He is telling me I need to go back to Council for this.”
(pause) “We are now there. They are asking me what my question is.”
After her initial meeting with Council and her soul group “intervention” Kashyapeiya is now far more ready to hear the deeper message in what the Council is communicating to her.
S: “It is all about acceptance. All the best for me is happening. I still don’t understand. Should I follow what is happening or should I create my life? I don’t understand. Should I make choices or should I just allow choices to be made? Sometimes they can be made and sometimes they have to be allowed to be made. In this particular situation I can make the choice. I can leave Mark. I can choose to be with Raul. But I don’t know how to do it if he doesn’t want to. No matter what, I have to respect the choices of others and not manipulate them to get what I want.”
P: (Another of Sasha’s pre-session questions) “What do you need to do at this time in your life?”
S: “Meditate and calm myself down. Send love. Accept his (Raul’s) free will.
I am asking the Council if I can project some images about our future life together.
Seeing possibilities and opening myself to the possibilities but be emotionally detached and not to project them to others to influence things.”
“They are saying that I have a tendency toward stubbornness and that I need to make the effort to move on and not stay stuck. I should move on with my life and follow my intuition. They say I already know what to do. No one is going to tell me what to do. I need to give free choice to others and not manipulate them. They say I can ask questions if I have any. I can have everything I want. I am very creative. I should respect the free will of others. There is a balance between creating and manipulating. I should create with love and acceptance. Soon I will have answers about where to live and what to do. They are showing me I can if I wish move from Portugal to another country. A colder place somewhere in Europe. I will be fine. I will have a good job and I will have children.”
Interestingly enough, six months after this session, while transcribing the recording for this chapter, Sasha contacted me and gave me a wonderful update on her situation. Sasha and her husband have reunited. She is packing to move back to Northern Europe.
Sasha tells me: “I set Raul free. I have accepted this lesson and have stopped trying to control things and miraculous things are happening. I finally understand what they were telling me. I am learning to let go. Mark and I have reunited in more loving and supportive ways than ever before. I am moving back to Northern Europe. I have successfully started my own business and I feel stronger now. I always thought that I have no free will. That somebody would give me instructions for life or tell me what to do. But, I have the power to choose and I now give others the freedom to choose too. I have chosen to let go.”
Clients seem to know the right time in their lives when to schedule an LBL hypnosis session into the afterlife. Usually, a fork in the road of life precipitates this action. It is important to note that when we are working on these deeper soul lessons once the session is over, it can take weeks, even months, to fully process and understand everything that comes to us in an LBL session. There is clearly a transition time between receiving the information, coming to an understanding of it, taking it into our soul and integrating into our life. Sasha’s life is now moving in a positive direction and she is focusing on her life purpose–to let go and enjoy life. ♥
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l) Typically, orientation with our guides right after physical death includes visualizations of quiet, peaceful areas. This de-programming is designed as a moderate measure in dealing with soul contamination rather than severe soul rejuvenation that requires more drastic action. The spiritual garden-type scene as described in this case may also include what many call a cleansing, “shower of healing.” The symbolism of flowing energy for purification is often evoked by the client reliving such scenes. JS. P. 54-55
2) There are a number of “I'm scared” expressions in this story by Sasha, the client. This sort of emotional fear does not actually come from Kashyapeiya, her soul, even though Sasha is in a deep theta trance state. In a pure discarnated state, souls may be uneasy about a loved one still on earth in trouble, or perhaps just before they appear before their council, but emotional fear from the central nervous system in a physical body does not exist for souls in the spirit world.
What we have here with Sasha's visual reactions to her council presentation of various current life scenes is an uncertain woman reacting to what she is seeing. She is engaged in a current life review within the “now” time of the spirit world where past, present and future are all rolled into one timeline interview. With LBL therapy the client may bring conscious mind transmissions into their unconscious where the human ego becomes integrated into recollections of a soul ego. See LBL Therapy. LBLH P. l90-94. Life Possibilities. DS. 359-65. LBLH. P. l77. Council Composition and Therapy. DS. 2l2-l4, 256.
3) The current life review Sasha is receiving from her council demonstrates the conflict we may feel by having more than one love partner in our life, even though prearranged. Notice the dynamics between her two loves today. Sasha discovers it is Mark who is her Primary Soulmate over thousands of years of lives, (i.e. “We were always together”). Raul has come into her current life (as he has from time to time in other lives) as a Companion Soulmate also from the same soul group. He has come as a catalyst for change because in this life Sasha, in her current body, is a manipulator of love and must come to terms with what love is all about. Soul Groups. JS. 88-90. Soulmates. JS-250-5l, DS. P. 259-65.
4) In LBL therapy, during periods of the session involving difficult scenes for the client, facilitators often call on the subject's personal spirit guide to assist. This is especially true with client blocks. In this case, the client was guided to mentally shift from a council scene to that of her soul group and was very therapeutic because she began to relax.
5) A soul's immortal character need not be in conjunction, but rather in opposition with the brain and the emotional temperament of their human host. See duality of ego. LBLH. P. 80-82, l83-87.
Paul Aurand is an LBL Facilitator in the NYC Area, Europe, and online worldwide