Steve's Journey through Pain
By Diana Paque
Certified Life Between Lives® Hypnotherapist, USA
Steve is a 65-year-old building contractor who came to me through the MNI website. He had read all of the Newton books and was fascinated by the stories, and he was now looking for an experience of his own. He had several issues of concern: his ability to continue his contracting business doing most of the construction himself; guidance around what to do with some property that he had bought years ago because he was told there was treasure on it that he had yet to find; and current experience with physical pain that had become chronic recently and could not be diagnosed or treated by doctors he had consulted.
During his first session, I started the induction, and before we could begin to go back in time, he began squirming and telling me his hip was really bothering him. I shifted into an alternate induction bringing warm red energy up from the root chakra through his legs and hips, warming and releasing tension from his body. He settled in, relaxing into a comfortable state. We were then able to regress through this lifetime, experiencing his young interest in being a gardener, and being in nature, about playing with his twin brother, and his earliest memory – looking for easter eggs in the living room, that he remarked were easy to find.
As he regresses into the womb, he notices he’s excited and ready to start life outside. He knows someone else is there but doesn’t realize it is his twin. During this portion of his journey, he observes that Steve is a good match: he’s going to be happy, going to want to learn and experience things: he’s going to be the positive one. As her reflects on lessons for this lifetime, he says he is just to be happy and positive.
Facilitator: “Are there other souls with you?”
Steve: “Uncle Jack Aunt Jen, Aunt Barb they’re here to help me feel loved. Love doesn’t have to come from immediate family; it can come from anyone –you have to feel that to live fully.”
We moved back into a past life where he was a strong, light skinned and hairy young man likely northern European due to his description of the forest environment, and most likely one of a hunter/gatherer clan. He was used to being on his own, and he’s content and happy to live his life as he is experiencing it.
I regressed him back to the beginning. He found himself in a hut, with other children, where it was warm. He feels safe, and well fed. He’s 3 and the hut is dark with a low ceiling but warm. Hut is a communal space where there are multiple families and children, but he feels no connection with parents.
As he ages, he notices girls and how pretty they are. He is outside, 7 years old, playing with rocks. He is thinking about changing from playing with rocks to looking at girls. His name is Heb.
At 12, he is learning to hunt – to first watch the animals and adult hunters to learn, and he is eager to be useful. He states that there is “no time to play anymore. Adults know a lot so you have to pay attention and learn from them.” He is learning from his uncles who are patient teachers. Mother and father are no longer present so he has been raised by family since he lost his parents very young. Life is about living in the moment and learning. He feels he will be good at hunting
At 16, Heb has a mate – the girl with the black braids he had admired as a child. They grew up together in the same clan, and now at 16 he’s happy to have a loving mate, and they are planning a family. They will have their own hut once they build it. He is now a hunter and gatherer with the rest of the men in the clan. Her name is Ari and he says that “She’s a good person: very loving and warm and clever”.
As he moves older to 19, he says that they can’t have children, but they’re happy. She takes care of the garden and home while he goes out to hunt with the men of the clan. He is strong and fast, and life is good. They have their own house in a small village. It is a tight knit community. He doesn’t have a position of authority or leadership, but all are valued for who they are.
As we move older to 22 or 23, he begins to sob. He’s needing to be taken care of – a bad hip from a hunting accident. He was injured on a hunt – as he remembers, he begins to cry – he was gored by a big animal that landed on his hip, pinning him, and breaking his pelvis and back. He was really injured and had to be helped away. They carried him back to the village, and he has been an invalid since that time. Heb keeps saying that they will take care of him for now, and until he can recover. The injury is frightening: he was strong, but now he’s not. He feels weak, but he knows that it’s permanent and will need to be supported for the rest of his life. It scares him terribly – he’s seen what happens as a result of these horrible injuries. In spite of this he says “A good life but it can be brutal”.
As he ages, he continues to weaken as he is unable to move. Now 40, he can’t do anything – can’t get up, but he can feed himself and use his hands. He has some upper body movement but not much. Heb is really tired. He’s ready to go, to leave this pain and burden. He sees himself as a burden: he never wanted to be a burden and always wanted to be strong. (Steve begins to cry again.)
And as he goes to the very last day of his life, Heb is 46 and anxious to go now; his body has failed and he is trapped in it. He knows he will see his ancestors in the afterlife. His wife is loving in spite of it all, and she knows this is the end. He tells her to live a good life and find someone else to love her.
Moving into the light, he feels relief as he releases this broken body and goes home.
I ask him “What can he tell Steve about pain? He responds: “It’s part of life – live with it the best you can.”
I then ask him, “If you could do something else, what would you have done? He responds that he “would have liked to travel and see more of the world, and learn about others far away.”
I ask, “what wisdom does Heb have for Steve about life?”
“Love, it’s the most important thing – not even a thing – things don’t matter, love does.”
“What did he learn from the injury?”
He responds: “I had no choice but to accept my circumstances and I suffered physically. It taught me to appreciate the love of others.”
Steve continued to have extreme pain in his hip over an extended period of time, seeing doctors and chiropractors to try to ease the pain. He had been experiencing chronic joint pain as well, but this hip pain was debilitating, causing him to need to rethink the way he was working with and without help. Ultimately, he returned for his LBL session. We started the session, and, like the PLR session, he descended into pain when he began to relax, bringing him back firmly into his body. We stopped and rescheduled the work. We tried again a few weeks later, shortening the intake to a chakra exercise and connecting him to his guides.
As he entered a connection with consciousness, he said he was picking up a blue violet light. His guide was behind him manifesting as supportive as he began to get used to being home.
The light feels inviting. We ask the guide to support Steve in moving further into the light.
“What does his guide call him?” I ask.
“Harn.”
He described his guide as short, stocky and masculine feeling.
I asked, “What can the guide share with you on entry?”
He responded, “be yourself.”
I prompted him to ask his guide about the pain and the physical challenges he was now experiencing. He said: “it’s time to go within– don’t focus so much on the physical.”
I then asked: “What can he recommend to make this physical adjustment?”
His guide responded that he could accept that it’s his destiny.
I further asked, “why is this such a big challenge to accept reduction in physical capacity?”
He slowly said, “he has lived many lives relying on his physical self, so it’s time to go deeper.” Steve questions him about this. He then says, “he says I will know how to do it.”
“Does it relate to your purpose?”
Steve responds that it’s about gaining understanding.
I ask if his guide has guidance for him as he transitions inside from outside? Does he offer help?
“He says be patient.”
“Is patience a lesson of many lifetimes?”
“Yes.”
“Is there anything you would like to explore or know about before we see your Council?”
Steve wants to know how he can contact the divine easily in his everyday life – the guide responds by telling him he has to practice his meditation more. “It’s been very difficult lately and accepting the way things are turning and shifting, so it should be easier as Steve accepts what is.”
“Is there a way of meditating that would be more comfortable?” I ask.
“Meditate whenever it feels right – don’t force it. It isn’t a process, it is (about the state of being).”
I ask if his guide has anything to tell him about life goals that he knows Steve has, with the goals Steve came to achieve.
“He says I’m not done yet – I’ve had some negative thoughts hoping I was done so I could go to a better place, but it’s not time – I have more to do.”
“Any reassurance on your goals?”
Steve refers to the guide, “he tells me that I’ve been making people happy by being kind and giving them work they enjoy, and I’m not done with my work – I just need to do it differently. I have work to do in my relationship – patience, teach her patience too – I have a role in her life as well as mine.”
We then invite his Council and thank them for their presence.
Steve says, “they are in front of me, around the front of me appearing as dark figures with no clear body or shapes. There are 4 or 5 of them.
On asking them if they have anything to share about Steve’s journey so far and his progress, Steve responds that they say “I’m doing ok.”
We raise the question of the physical challenges creating a big change and asking what can they give to support work through these. He received no response. We asked about Steve’s purpose in this lifetime. Again, no response.
Steve recognizes that he feels he disconnected from them due to pain. I confirmed that his guide is still present so we did a deepener. “Ask your guide to help in coming back into contact with Council. Notice what happens.”
He responds: “Many there now.”
“Why is he here now?”
“I’m here to grow.”
“Are there particular areas of growth?”
“Kindness.”
“Steve’s physical challenges – how do they relate to his lessons?”
“They say he needs to put his pain aside so he can help others, accepting his pain. It will help me appreciate others.” Steve says he doesn’t know what this means, and they explain that the “focus in life goes way beyond me, so pain connects me to life of others.”
“Is helping others grow part of your work?”
“Yes I am here to help others appreciate themselves and what they think of themselves. Learning about openings that seem like failures as opportunities to help others see.”
“How can your Council support you with this?”
“Deep breaths; the more I can help others appreciate what they have. it will make me appreciate what I still have. I don’t need to do what I’ve always done physically.”
“And how are you and your wife meant to support each other now?”
“They say you just have to accept her – she’s always been the leader in all our lifetimes together. She’s learning to be patient. We have so much together, we complement each other in so many ways.”
“Is there a way she can help you now?”
“Yes, as I become able to do less physical things, it will help her understand and appreciate what I’ve been able to do in the past.”
I ask if there are resources that your Council can remind you about now that would help you.
“Yes, resources to help with her, being with her, doing the things she loves to do and that I love to do also enjoying things together that makes both of us happy. Beautiful home and garden makes her happy, which gives me happiness as well.
Steve asks the Council for some hope about moving through this physical pain and is assured it will get better. He hears that the best thing he can do to make it better is less physical work.
“Are there other things to occupy himself with that will support his need to be productive?”
“Yes I still love my work, but I can choose to do it differently.”
“Any reminders from them on this?”
“They say my pain will remind me!”
Steve then moved on to explore other questions that he had for the Council. As he was completing his engagement with them, he asked to be reminded of his connection with me. He started laughing gently as they told him that we have shared lives together in the past. He then said that it seemed to make perfect sense for him to do this work with me as we seem to have energetic bonds beyond that of client and facilitator. He was drawn to work with me because of this feeling of connection which I also felt.
And as Steve has continued over the past several months, he has continued to be busy with his work and has allowed others to handle work that he would have done by himself in the past. He just recently returned from a long vacation where he was able to totally release the tensions of work and enjoy time with his wife in the peace and quiet of nature. His pain comes and goes, but the intense hip pain has not returned even during their long road trip vacation. ♥
Diana Paque is an LBL Facilitator in the San Francisco Bay Area, CA, USA and online worldwide