Joe’s Journey Back to Love

By Kristina Le Claire
Certified Life Between Lives® Facilitator, Canada

When Joe came to me for the Life Between Lives (LBL) session, he didn’t have a big plan. He came with only one goal: to feel something again. Anything. He didn’t know what he was looking for, but he said he needed to find some kind of connection, some spark that could pull him out of the void he had been living in. He asked questions but wasn’t sure if there were answers to be found. Could he ever feel happy? Was it too late for him? Could he ever reconnect with anything at all resembling a purpose? 

There wasn’t any certainty behind them. Just longing.

Joe came in for his session completely broken. He was in his early 60s, but the heaviness he carried made it feel like decades of life had piled onto him all at once. The way he talked about life: it wasn’t just sadness; it was like a numbness that had been building for years. He said, flat out, “I don’t feel like life is worth living anymore.” And he wasn’t dramatic about it; it was matter of fact, almost tired. He said he didn’t care about anything. He didn’t think he had been happy in years. Maybe ever.

He had been in a relationship for 25 years, and when it ended, it wasn’t just losing his partner, he lost any hope of love ever coming back. He said he wasn’t interested in trying to date again, and he didn’t care about trying to form any new relationships, either. He felt completely disconnected from everyone, including himself. He said he couldn’t remember what love felt like, he didn’t think he knew what love was and didn’t think he ever did. He wasn’t bitter or angry; he was empty. And because of that emptiness, he felt like there was nothing to live for.

There was a part of him that believed no one could ever love him again. But even deeper, he wasn’t sure he could love himself. He was empty, and even the capacity for love was drained out of him entirely. The pain was all he could connect with, and he was lost in a world that no longer made sense to him. He didn’t necessarily want to leave this earth, but he felt he had no reason to remain on it, either.  This was the weight he carried when he came into my studio.  No purpose in anything at all. No love, no emotions, no hope.

Joe’s life had been turned upside down. He didn’t just lose his partner; he lost his sense of purpose, his passions, the things that made life worth living. And when we talked, it was clear how much that sadness had become a part of him. He said, almost in a whisper, sounding so hopeless and lifeless that he didn’t remember the last time he felt anything.

The Session

As we began, the first thing he noticed was his own detachment. Joe spoke about feeling completely detached from everything in his life. I told him to just pay attention to any feeling that came up, no matter how small. And then he went back to a place that was familiar but far away: his childhood bedroom. Joe described sitting in his old childhood bedroom. “It’s so quiet here,” he said, his voice full of a sense of isolation. “I feel alone.”

He told me how, as a child, he learned to hide his feelings because showing vulnerability seemed unsafe. He truly believed showing any vulnerability would lead to rejection, so he buried his emotions deep within. Rejection seemed inevitable if he let anyone see him. This deep-rooted fear of abandonment and unworthiness had carried with him into adulthood, making it impossible to form true connections or trust others. “Even back then, I didn’t know how to love,” he said later.

Past Life

We moved deeper into the session, and Joe found himself revisiting another life. Joe journeyed to a life where he was part human, part machine. His role in this existence was unique: his only job was to allow others (other beings) to feel emotions through him. However, in doing so, he also had to experience those emotions himself first, before passing them on. He was placed stationary in a specific location and in order to feel something these beings would come to him. He would feel the emotion first, and then they would hook up to him and feel the emotion second, through him.

And he was terrified.

When he first encountered the emotions, he was filled with so much fear. He had been suppressing feelings for so long that even a small spark of emotion felt overwhelming. Love, especially, was alien to him. His guides came in to support him as he was just too afraid of feeling anything.

I encouraged him to tap into the emotions slowly and carefully, guiding him to first allow the emotions to flow through him, then to turn them off at will, practicing this switch of feeling the emotions and then not feeling the emotions. He needed to practice letting emotions in, just a little at a time, before turning them back off. On. Off. On. Off. Like exercising a muscle he hadn’t used in decades.

At first, even tiny feelings were almost unbearable. But little by little, he practiced expanding the “volume” of emotion he could hold. Slowly, he began to tolerate it. He started letting the feelings of love flow, tiny flickers at first, and then bigger. Gradually, he began to expand his capacity to hold the emotion without shutting it down.

And then it happened.

He began crying uncontrollably. Not tears of sadness, but of relief and recognition. For the first time, he felt love—not just for someone else, but being accepted, being understood, being allowed to feel the emotion in himself. He repeated over and over, “I am loved. I AM love.” His guides were right there with him, supporting him, and the intensity of it broke him open in a way he hadn’t imagined possible. This was the first time he’d ever felt these deep emotions of feeling love, being loved, and absolute acceptance for who he is.  He was remembering that this was who he was at his core.  He didn’t know what to do with all this love, it was overflowing and overwhelming.  His guides encouraged him all the way. He said he had never remembered feeling this before, ever.

When we reached the “afterlife”, Joe’s transformation continued. He described being surrounded by a warm, golden light. “It’s so comforting, and peaceful” he said, his voice full of wonder. “I feel like I’m finally at home.”

His guide reappeared in the light, radiating love and peace. The guide spoke gently: “You are made of love, Joe. This is what you are.” The guide’s words were simple but powerful. For the first time, Joe felt an overwhelming sense of truth washing over him. He had forgotten who he truly was. He wasn’t just a man who had been broken by his past; he was a being of love, and that love could never be taken from him.  And, he truly felt it. Not that love is something you find. Not that it comes from someone else. It was inside him all along.

Joe’s heart started to open, and as tears were streaming down his face, he said he had been holding onto so much pain. He realized that he had been hanging onto the past, to the pain and heartbreak, because he thought if he let go, he would lose everything. But that’s not true, letting go wasn’t about losing love: it was about making room for it to flow freely again.  He said he saw that love doesn’t go away. It just changes.

Joe spent a long time with his guides who allowed him to truly feel love deep in his heart, not only the love that they had for him, but all the love that was for waiting for him.  All the love inside of him.  Joe cried and cried, stating over and over “I am loved, I AM love.” 

After the Session

When the session completed, it was like a switch had flipped. Joe sat up and he looked completely transformed. He looked different. Lighter. Brighter. Alive.  He was astounded and said he didn’t imagine or ever think he would have felt that again in this life.

He was truly in disbelief. He took a deep breath, a long sigh and just sat for a minute settling, processing, coming to terms with what he now knew to be true.  He said he was smiling for the first time in what felt like ages.  He felt like he finally, finally, had something that would keep him from moving on, something that would allow him to finish his life with an excitement that he never had. It was like watching somebody be reborn right in front of my eyes.  He was so excited he said everything even looked differently. “I feel like I can finally breathe again,” he said. He was SO happy! He couldn’t wait to see his life through love that wasn’t there before!

Joe left my office, honestly, a completely different person. Joe had learned something profound that day. Love was never lost—it was never gone. It was a part of him, woven into the very fabric of his being. He was no longer the same man who had walked in, weighed down by despair and a life without love. The real transformation came from him reconnecting with that truth. “I didn’t come here to find love,” he said, his voice filled with a quiet but certain knowing. “I came here to remember that I am love.” 

Love isn’t something we find or lose, it’s something we ARE.  It can’t be taken away. It doesn’t vanish. No matter how disconnected or lost we feel, love is always there, just waiting for us to remember. ♥

Kristina Le Claire is an LBL Facilitator in London, Ontario, Canada and sees clients in-person and online worldwide.

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